No you don’t. You want to learn how to properly run your hardware.

• anxiety serves a purpose, forces your fight or flight response, develops survival instinct

• memory is not meant to be heidetic as not everything is vital information; you want to remember what you had for lunch when you were 3 years old, on a tuesday, mid january?

• failures are more important than successes; failure teaches you what does not work.

Run your hardware better. Have some therapy, try to sleep more/better and go for a daily walk.