I’ve had times on weed where I latched onto a thought and it spiraled into this infinitesimal void of paranoia that only lasts a short while. The few times it happened was from shotgun bong rips.
Honestly, I find comfort in it. I feel like I have undiagnosed ADHD or something because even in those paranoid states, it doesn’t turn me off of the drug. The other 99% of the time it quiets my mind and I don’t spiral into depression or suicidal thoughts.
In a way I get it, your way of life is being discriminated against. But with thousands of years of history and present day to go off of, I still feel it’s a good thing.
I kinda compare it to smoking cigarettes. There are a ton of people who do it, but it’s so obviously unhealthy. I won’t go on with the analogy, but you can get pretty grim with it.
You can have a fulfilling and culture filled life without blind hope for a greater power and possibly being negatively influenced by that belief; either through authority figures in your church or you’re own interpretations of religious teachings.
Another thing I saw mentioned was that it’s a state run school. Separation of church and state is something I vehemently agree with. So while it might suck for you, your grandchildren will be better off because they’re not losing anything.