I’ve purchased my estrogen HRT via DIY means thanks to the support of communities like this on Lemmy and on the chat.blahaj.zone Matrix server. diyhrt.info was a great starter guide and I feel confident in what I need to do. At this point, it’s just waiting for EEn to show up at a PO Box and purchasing the accessory equipment (needles, sharp boxes, etc.).

I’m 32 years old and I’m tired of living in a body that doesn’t reflect who I am so I’m going to try and make a change. Once my wife and I worked it out (as much as any couple in this situation can work it out), I had a hard time actually committing. I sat on this decision for a bit. It’s not easy to commit to potentially irreversible bodily changes, but I’m confident that I want them. I’d be lying if the concept didn’t scare me a little though. I want to be pretty. I just want to be myself. I wish there was a telescope I could look through that would show me my future.

If I didn’t have conservative family, friends, community, and work, I’d be over the moon right now. But there is a part of me that’s afraid of the fallout I’ll be fielding for the (*checks political climate*) rest of my life.

All that being said, there’s a much larger part of me that’s excited! I’m looking forward to being myself - regardless of what others think. All of you are absolute icons for being the first ones to take those steps and to support people like me. If I didn’t find communities like this (and lurk on them) for years, I never would have made it to the other side. I appreciate your advice, comments, support, and honesty as I’ve flooded this community with my posts.