Why I like my therapist so much. She understands wholly what I mean, and she helps me to remember we can only control what we can. I can control my plants, in this case.
On a tangent just last week I, well, I was telling her a video game I play I was having difficulty with the wolves. Everytime I’d come across them, I’d get anxiety and attacked, die, respawn, and when I’d go to get my inventory, I’d be shaking so bad I couldnt even use the mouse to gather it. The boar’s were easy, the bears made me afraid a bit, but the wolves we’re having me panic.
She asked, why do you think the wolves have you panic? The most generic, easy response, right? I shrugged it off and said probably my trauma (I have diagnosed c-ptsd). Meeting ended.
But for three days, I couldn’t get the question out of my head. Why were the wolves freaking me out so badly? I wanted to defeat the wolves. Then I remembered, 14 years ago I was bit by a dog. Aggressively. He lunged for my neck, I blocked him with my arm where he snagged me. Another person put the dog in a head lock so he couldn’t shake his head, the dog didn’t let go until I, well, instinct kicked in I guess and I played dead, I exhaled and went limp. He let go, I went to the hospital and was lucky, he nearly missed my tendon. I had forgotten… I know… I know, but it all made sense. The next time I came aross the wolves, I didnt lose my inventory.
So simple, so effective. You must find the right therapist and sometimes it’s difficult.
Why I like my therapist so much. She understands wholly what I mean, and she helps me to remember we can only control what we can. I can control my plants, in this case.
On a tangent just last week I, well, I was telling her a video game I play I was having difficulty with the wolves. Everytime I’d come across them, I’d get anxiety and attacked, die, respawn, and when I’d go to get my inventory, I’d be shaking so bad I couldnt even use the mouse to gather it. The boar’s were easy, the bears made me afraid a bit, but the wolves we’re having me panic.
She asked, why do you think the wolves have you panic? The most generic, easy response, right? I shrugged it off and said probably my trauma (I have diagnosed c-ptsd). Meeting ended.
But for three days, I couldn’t get the question out of my head. Why were the wolves freaking me out so badly? I wanted to defeat the wolves. Then I remembered, 14 years ago I was bit by a dog. Aggressively. He lunged for my neck, I blocked him with my arm where he snagged me. Another person put the dog in a head lock so he couldn’t shake his head, the dog didn’t let go until I, well, instinct kicked in I guess and I played dead, I exhaled and went limp. He let go, I went to the hospital and was lucky, he nearly missed my tendon. I had forgotten… I know… I know, but it all made sense. The next time I came aross the wolves, I didnt lose my inventory.
So simple, so effective. You must find the right therapist and sometimes it’s difficult.